#10: With a thousand lies and a good disguise,

So, how was your Ramadhan?
Mine was significantly fantastic; well eventhough almost the whole month I'm celebrating it and breaking fast in my university itself. But oh well dear, when else am I gonna feel a lil something different from the usual vibe of celebrating it at home or what even; matrics. As you might already guess, yeah I wouldn't have survived it alright without my UM clique. The boys especially. I totally gasped a relieved air every freaking time they said yes to breaking fast outside of our campus. Just for the reason; the campus food are all sucky. Well, not all, but yeah.

This year's Ramadhan is definitely one mind-wrenching month. Too much dramas sipping into the holy air. And it is so hard to force myself not to talk about something bad. Failed. Sometimes, I just wonder, why can't we just live on a free-drama lane? Why do we often have miscommunication on something small? Is it because we just dont complete the puzzle of each other? The frequency doesn't match? What went wrong? Damn it.

I actually came down to a conclusion that these can all start from one word. And it is ENVY, JEALOUSY. Whoaa, now now, that is already considered as one of the seven deadly sins, y'know? See, and that is why it is categorized in the seven. It can definitely lead to a disastrous life to both parties. Think about it. Why would you actually wanna be jealous of your own best friends? Or maybe, we weren't really your friends? Oh dear God. Get over it. Wake up, breathe some self-awakening air! Don't forget where you're gonna turn back to someday. We may not be the best, but I'm sure that we always have our hands open for a warm hug and a shoulder to cry on. Stop being a bossy childish freak, and live life, man. I'm really sorry for such inappropriate and vulgar words. But it is just to wake you up from your damn wonderland. Sorry honey, you're not Alice.

And I know, I am not all perfect. And I could be really annoying sometimes. As you said before; I am an attention seeker. But sorry, to be honest, I have never really seek for one, and it just came along the way. It is totally not your fault if all the people that you fancy, fancy me more okay? I did not beg for it.

P/S: Nobody likes you anymore, nobody. Stop perpetuating your life that way.

You know what? Forget it. I've forgive you. The others? I definitely do not know, that; you have to ask them. Good luck with life.

Loves, xx

Listening to: You're Gonna Go Far Kid by The Offspring