Show me how to lie.
HOPE THAT THIS LASTS FOR AWHILE
I am sorry to blind your eyes again with just another of my rants. I do not know how many wordpads have I saved just to rant out this never ending anger that has been eating me up lately. Articulately, these past few weeks, abhorrence has been ablaze in the unstable mind of yours truly. Tried to arraign a few things but the abominable thoughts still linger around, and plus, poisonous air is injected around us. I came to a conclusion that there is just too much things that has bewildered my mind and cause this massive anger. I hate it when I wake up and realize that I do have unsolved issues and unanswered lachrymose, confusing feelings between me and my best friends. I am totally jaded with those thoughts that have been scattered around me. Sometimes, I feel, there is no use in putting all of my endeavors in saving these relationships when half of my party has clearly given up and the other party doesn't even bother to care and gaily enjoying with the third party. No,I am not speaking of envy here, just speaking of disappointment on how much have I put for the salvation of the relationship; that definitely doesn't look like it needs a savior for an abiding relationship.
Do not get me wrong, I am not aggravating the third party though, but all of you who come under the third party in this case, should really start putting yourselves in our shoes. Not that I have anything against you people or whatsoever because honestly, you guys are a nice bunch of friends that I would love to keep too :) Just, remember that, don't treat people the way you do not want to be treated. Well, just saying.
I just have to stop being consumed by the thought of us; what we were, what we could be and whatever that linger around us. But, I won't stop believing in us.
That's it I guess.
Loves, xx
Listening to: You're Gonna Go Far Kid by The Offspring
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