#111: To be happy about.

I really need this.

Semester 3 ended really bad except for the fact that my results were again; the only thing that never fail to amaze me. Friendship on the rocks, few broken, gained some new ones, trust broken, anger took most of myself, and majorly filled with disappointments; just pure unforgivable disappointments.

I was all so demotivated to start my 4^th semester. Maybe it’s because of how tragic the 3^rd semester ended. Too disappointed to even care about starting a new one. But I finally picked up the pieces, put aside my anger and disappointments because honestly, I don’t find any of these will help me lead to a better life.

Anyways, I actually happened to clean my old files and I found a paper that my gang used to scribble during the Science & Technology Lecture in the 1^st semester. I still remember how close all 8 of us were. We used to sit at the most back row in lecture, camwhored and ate junk food all the way in class; also scribbled papers around. I miss how we used to go everywhere with each other, have weekly dinner and pick adorable fights among one another over dinner and also facebook comments! Ahh, how we used to go out and have a movie night and lepak til late night. We were like this perfect bunch just like that pictured in How I Met Your Mother and That ‘70s Show. Then stuffs started to happen, driftings, detachments. We’re still close, but I’m not gonna lie that we aren’t as close as we used to be. Honestly, it is sad and it hurts to see how we are all detaching.

Not going to point my finger to anyone. I do not know who is at fault. Choices like these are always in the hands of that person. I just want to remind that, as mean as I may look, I always put my friends as my priority because I hate backstabbing. And boys & girls, the 7 of you will be the friends that I swear in the name of God, that I would never back stab. I’ll do and sacrifice whatever to save any of your asses from trouble and swear, will get you out of trouble.

Just something that I guess I should say it out. Have a pleasant semester! (while I hope mine will build back its own way oh well, this is me sighing)

Loves, xx

Listening to: Fences by Phoenix