Saturday, January 22, 2011

#53: Every dollar counts and every morning hurts.


Lately I feel as if I'm in a constant melancholic state. Nothing feels or seems important to me anymore. I've been trying to avoid such foul feeling, but all of these unfamiliar, vexation gestures around me just doesn't help that much. Thanks, for making me feel like a total life ruiner, your verbal actions showed it all. Not just a particular person, but a bunch. And to be honest, I don't even have a slight mere of heart for any of you heinous kind of people. What happened to the phrase; "Never judge a book by it's cover" that your parents have been educating you all this while? Please, oh dear God, please don't give me detachment for me to write as an epiphany :/

I have never in my life, felt this way before. Like the whole world is turning it's back on me, stepping on me, spitting on me. Seeing me as a sinful, immoral person. Never. What have they done to me? I have put myself in a shoe full of manners, and controllable anger. But they treat me this way back? If this is just apart of Allah's challenge to me, then I'll take it as it is, because I believe this all going to lead to something.

"Allah will not be merciful to those who are not merciful to people." [Bukhari]



Loves, xx
Listening to: Run by Vampire Weekend


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