Truth
to be told, I am quite pessimistic for an optimist. I always have this positive
mind set, but always expect the worst. I’m still trying to figure myself out,
on why I often react in such a way. I came to a conclusion that, maybe, these
fears of losing someone, something have put me in such shoes.
Being
me, I actually expected my last semester as an Undergraduate Student would suck
so much as my life always gets worse when it comes to the end of the year. But
surprisingly, it’s the other way round. I am spending every day of this last
semester, cherishing the little things that I have never imagine myself
cherish. The smiles on each of my course mates, the crazy courage to make the
first move on a guy, the laughter that crack my jaw every time I spend my time
with my gang, the progress of my relationship with everybody, the look of my
most favourite guy every time I admit that I miss him. Sounds as if I am
leaving this whole life that I have, so dramatic. But, I guess with such career
that I’m about to dive into, it sure feels like I’m leaving all these behind. I
spend almost every day going out and just do nothing or simply just long talks
with few of my closest friends from university. Such deep, meaningful and
playful conversations that I believe have grown fonder of us. The days that I
spend with my favourite guy are just pure intimate. All these are making it so
hard for me to start over a new life of more serious commitments and crucial
life decisions. I can’t believe that I am actually going to admit this, but… I
don’t think I’m ready to grow up and leave all that childish playful jokes,
midnight lepaks and drive arounds, madness screams and laughter, and also the
crazy party life. I don’t want to grow up. I like this age. I am not ready to
move on.
One
of the craziest thing I wouldn’t forget that I actually did it was, the fact
that once I actually rolled the car window down at a red traffic, screaming
“PENIS” on top of my lung so many times. I actually got my head out from the
car and did it. I… well, am going to miss this so much.
Life
as a student is going to end, for like, forever. And this is most probably the
saddest phase of my life. Dear everyone who is reading this, cherish your
student life while you still can. Take chances, have the courage to do
something that you never thought you would, dive yourself into madness, party
yourself out; because this is the time.
Have
a great day, everybody. I’m out for a round or maybe five rounds of teh tarik
with my favourite people, singing my heart out to The Naked and Famous’ Young
Blood while winding the window down. Cheers, this is to the student life J
Loves,
xx
Listening to: Young Blood
by The Naked and Famous
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