“All
the time I just want to let go. All the time I just want to fuck it up and say
hey ho.”
Ask
me what’s the feeling of finally being done with studying. Go ahead. Ask me.
It’s
like you could finally breathe again after your chest is being pushed so hard
that the pain grows in you up until your throat, strangling every possible part
of your body. You breathe, and you lie on a wide field of green grass with
flower petals on them, and could finally enjoy the sun and clouds; the light
that you’ve been yearning to feel after being so caught up with books. You
breathe and enjoy every sip of air that you could take in. So peaceful and
beautiful.
I’ve
been sleeping the whole day. Rolling on bed, doing a vertical celebratory dance
on bed. Getting serious attachment with my bed like never before. Don’t even
feel like I want to move around or pack my things so I could get out of college
as soon as possible. I just want to forget that I have a flight to catch in a
day time. I just want to be lazy and happy. Mostly just lazy. My vacation plans
could wait a little more as I get down with serious business with my bed.
Come,
let’s understand (or at least pretend) these peculiar and mixed feelings of
mine, and lie beside me and laugh to “Gone the days where I have to adapt to a
society that I don’t belong to.” (Yes, I’m not even sad to leave my university
life and the people involved with it.)
Cheers
to Natasya graduating and getting a bachelor degree. Cheers to Natasya finally
being released from a society that she doesn’t belong to. Cheers to Natasya
being happy, like finally. And definitely cheers to Natasya that breathes.
Loves,
xx
Listening
to: Pilgrim by MØ
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