I smiled when you speak. Imagine a scenario where you get to sit with the person you love the most and talked about your feelings to each other. Lovely? But, that’s not really my story ;)
It is really crazy when things just happened unexpectedly. You had 3 great days in a row. You mend what’s been broken. You gained trust even more. You met new faces and they became the few types you can keep. You go through this bliss you felt everytime you see newlywed couples guffawing in joy. And then, the next thing you know, everything went back to how they’re supposed to be and awkwardness doesn’t seem possible in any ways anymore because you actually sat and talked your heart out. Just insanely amazing.
We find it really tangling us up when there’s unanswered doubts choking every inch of veins inside of us. Our lips sealed them up. The problem with us is.. we love assuming things without even asking. And the problem with assuming is.. it’s just destructive. It is. It eats you up. We’re still having such tough times to clear things that weren’t even supposed to be lingering and choking ourselves up. What happened to being able to communicate wisely and maturely when we grow up?
Communication. As easy as it sounds, but, really, they’re not. Writing about this is definitely easier than saying this to a face. Although this is the first thing that we learned in life, ironically, as we grow through it, learn our words and really start talking, the tougher it becomes to know exactly what to say or.. how to ask for what we really need. Sad, but very true.
Does this coagulates with the ego that grew together with our age? Or is it just a pure coincidence?
Because, I kind of made myself won a 70% of the war between what I really want and the ego in me. I don’t find communicating with someone that hard, so, in my case, I would point my finger to my ego. Monday blues slapped me hard, and I actually said and asked for what I wanted to know all this while. Surprisingly, the answers gave me this really weird joy. I was literally smiling at all the wrong times like I was high on cocaine or something and just still smiling even at hard times. There’s this point when I was really terrified with myself because I have never felt this happy and amazing before :’)
The point is, if we ignore the ego that’s been haunting us all this while and believe that we can communicate mature enough, we will walk through it finely. At least, it’s better to know the truth although at times it may be harsh, but that’s so much better than to live in such regrets! If you have doubts, ASK. Don’t keep it because if you keep it, it will eat you and you will be very sad and no one in this life wants to live in doubts and sadness and regrets til the end of the life.
I’m just sharing my point of view because they worked for me and I just thought that it would be lovely to share it with my readers :) Have a great day!
Loves, xx
Listening to: Love by Foster The People
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