Loneliness leads to nothing good, only detachment. And sometimes the people who most need to reach out are the people least capable of it.
Days passed by. In a split second, anything could happen. I'm starting to live life with more meaning. People say that we shouldn't get too attached to someone or something, or else the lost will cut is deep. But, honestly, it is our personal, indivual pain. Who cares? Seriously. So, I am attaching myself to this bunch that I am starting to put my trust on. They are my course mates. I am aware of the fact that we might all get detached in about 2 years time. But I already start to love each of them, even more. Just like how some of them have put their trusts on me.
Some said that they came to me because I am a very lonely person. But, I guess that wasn't right because I am getting attached right now, not detached. Honestly, I feel so good that people actually trust me. For once, I feel so useful, despite being a total klutz in advising people. It is really good to be a listener. It really helps my ideas and thoughts to transpire and run free. Ironically, I can read people with their problems really well, but not mine. I don't have the ability to read myself and I labelled myself as confused. Well, at least I am not in denial for that. For now, I am a really confused person and I guess that made me stop from being this perky, cheerful person. I still have a lot to be answered. Til then, I am going to enjoy what has been left for me to.
My point is, I am getting closer to my course mates and I actually really am loving it. For someone with a really high ego, that's a good start ;) Great job and I hope this will last long, and maybe forever.
Loves, xx
Listening to: Black Heart Inertia by Incubus
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